love me love me

say that you love me...

im just a damn love fool.
its almost me and my boyfriends one month. yay
and happy new year too you all...

i can't sleep tonight,
demons await me in dreams unimaginable.
my fingers are rough against my own skin,
damn these metal strings.
even my own escape causes me pain
emotional and physical pain.
the fingers that pull melodies out of useless metal strings.
ballads of the dead, bring me to life.
back to the breaks, crashes and burns.
i spit into the face of society.
my new years resolution? to be real.

there are nooo...
raindrops on roses
and girls in white dresses
it's sleeping with roaches
and taking best guesses
shades of the sheetss and before all the stainss
...and a few more of my lleeaasstt favourite thiiiingss...