i just kinda wish youd realize the problem and give it some time to fix it, and if that doesnt work out then break up, but just saying that i deserve better without trying to make it better just makes it seem like you dont really care much, or youre not telling me something, iunno

i couldnt stay away, i couldnt stay happy

for the first time in a long time
i looked at my wrists and sang along to seether and gavin degraw
mix of two different worlds
whats a girl to do
to choose
to live with
i'm now looking into my shades of grey and noticing the flaws in life
i can't take your tricks
your games
your forks stuck in my road
my pleas are falling on your deaf ears
and i'm falling softly and silently
take time to realize
that you've stuck too many pins into the porcelain doll
the once everlasting rose of our relationship
has now become the thorn in my side
and i'm falling softly and silently
take time to realize
that youve cracked open my heart
and poured its contents into a blender
lets watch it spin into oblivion
and i'm falling softly and gently
too bad the gorilla was too busy crushing the flower
to hear the pins and tears drop
.fall.slowly.gently.

i'm back
i'm insane
call the doctor
and lace my next drink with cyanide and morphine