freakin' Love Fool

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem
You love me no longer, I know
And maybe there is nothing
That I can do to make you do

Mama tells me I shouldn't bother
That I ought just stick to another guy
A guy that surely deserves me
But I think you do

So I cry, I pray, and I beg

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Fool, fool me
Go on and fool me
Love me, love me
Pretend that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me

So I cry, and I beg for you to

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me
I can't care about anything but you

Lately I have desperately pondered
Spent my nights awake an I wonder
What I could have done in another way
To make you stay

Reason will not lead to solution
I will end up lost in confusion
I don't care if you really care
As long as you don't go

So I cry, I pray, and I beg

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Fool, fool me
Go on and fool me
Love me, love me
Pretend that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me

So I cry, and I beg for you to

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me
I can't care about anything but you (anything but you)

Love me, love me
Fool, fool me
Love me, love me
I can't care about anything but you

songs been stuck in my head all day and it's pissing me off just like everything else
rawwrrr

above the waters, barely aware..

i'm treading through shark waters just to see...

test the waters
i'm falling too deep
is this what love feels like
'cause i'm drowning
half the things i say i don't mean
half the things i mean i don't say.
it's just the way life goes round.
i couldn't say love
i didn't know how.
commitment fills holes in hearts,
but crazy glue doesn't always hold.
the cure for love is letting go
but it all just hurts the same.
his deep blues see dreams and wonders
but what am i to them?
i'd ask myself
cant he do better?
i'd ask to him
cant you do better?
can they see right through the flaws?
test the waters
i'm falling too deep
is this what love feels like
'cause i'm drowning

.if maybe i could care, care.
the title and bolded is a part of my new song.. .wootwoot
it looks weird but yeah it works with the music very nicely.
and i might add in the underlined stuff from the actual post as verse two
but i'm still debating.
i guess nothings secret when your boyfriend finds your blog...
what a shmuck.

whether i live or die,
whether i try to divide
the loneliness
from the pain i left behind
how emo

*...let me go this time...*

sorry i'm fading out today,
i just havent had the time,
to separate my thoughts and know
my reason from my rhyme.
i hear the outgoing calls,
they try to reach my ears,
they hiss and screech and call my name
a thousand nights of fears.
leave me alone,
i cant stand my pain.
worry no more,
just let me fall to shame.
your hands are cold
my heart is old.
withering eyes and
just let me go this time.

hold your head high with your tail between your legs...

...just hope no one looks down.
i know i won't
i fear looking down,
you might miss a moment
flash before your eyes.
i'm a loser
a failure
and everything in -between-
...it's hard growing up in a place
where you don't know who you are
where you belong
and how to fit in.
los angeles on wednesday, don't expect posts until tuesday night
when will he find out
that he could do
so much damn better

there's a fire
in your eyes
and i *hope* you
let it BURN!

because i've been waiting for you to try...

...set your sights high, elevate yourself to the sky

defibrillator hearts

bring me back to life.

because i don't think the life i live

is real.

give me another one of your
"only in movies" kisses.
and stargaze in empty parks.
feeling sand between the toes,
hear the swings creaking softly.
it's nights like these
where you wonder if the world is real.
if there's such a thing as
happiness, and compassion.
hold me tight and never let go
and say it'll be okay.
the first to make me smile
with just a light kiss on the hand.
the first to make me laugh
with just small corny gestures.
the first to make me believe
with just a romantic date.
the first to make me doubt love
by just being so damn real.
with just a quick "i love you".
with just a small smile, laugh, gesture, and kiss.
it's these small things that made me stop
and listen to the crickets,
while he stood wondering what he did wrong.

.just rise and shine.

Shine by Brian Melo... amazing lyrics, amazing song
wow...
i usually don't throw the L Word around... but people do crazy things sometimes

you could love me if you knew how to lie...

...but who could love me?

i'm tired of living inside my prison.
kisses on cheeks could leave bruises,
but its the memory that leaves a scar.
tears that i could shed over him,
leave cheeks stained red.
walk me to my front door.
kiss me under the porch light
and let me melt into him.
oh its what he does to me,
and i cant get enough.
but i still think i'm the pawn
that has yet to make its move.
the test to be experimented and documented,
and i'm about to fail.
old habits die hard,
and your ways are trying to bite back.
i'm looking for the "worth it" boy.
this is the calm before the storm,
and when i step out into the rain,
the lightening shocks are just so frequent these days.
if he is the "worth it" boy
then why don't i feel..."worth it"?

.i am out of my mind.
the title and bolded lyrics are those of She Had The World by Panic at the Disco
not the best album but i'm going to see them in concert
woot.
i used to think that maybe he wasn't right for me.
but what if i'm not the right girl for him?

and i cant sleep tonight...

...because all the lights are scaring me.

why is it that everything that is bad for you
just makes you feel so good?
why is it that the one you loved to hate
becomes the one you hate to love?
(love being an overexaggeration of course.)
~walk me home in the dead of night,
whisper it in my ear.
hold me like you'll never go,
because that is all i fear.
show me angel smiles,
it's all you are to me.
kiss me like it's the last time,
let my butterflies roam free.
it's hard to say what i see in him,
when all he points out are flaws.
it's hard whenever he does something right,
i'm reminded of his wrongs.
it's hard to say that you love someone,
when you don't know how it will feel.
it's hard when you look in his eyes,
and wonder if it's really real.
it's hard that i can't fall asleep at night,
because i just can't read his mind.
it's hard when you want to know how he feels,
still you're scared of what you might find.~

.they're scaring me tonight.
- bolded and title are courtesy of Cocaine by AKissForJersey