above the waters, barely aware..

i'm treading through shark waters just to see...

test the waters
i'm falling too deep
is this what love feels like
'cause i'm drowning
half the things i say i don't mean
half the things i mean i don't say.
it's just the way life goes round.
i couldn't say love
i didn't know how.
commitment fills holes in hearts,
but crazy glue doesn't always hold.
the cure for love is letting go
but it all just hurts the same.
his deep blues see dreams and wonders
but what am i to them?
i'd ask myself
cant he do better?
i'd ask to him
cant you do better?
can they see right through the flaws?
test the waters
i'm falling too deep
is this what love feels like
'cause i'm drowning

.if maybe i could care, care.
the title and bolded is a part of my new song.. .wootwoot
it looks weird but yeah it works with the music very nicely.
and i might add in the underlined stuff from the actual post as verse two
but i'm still debating.
i guess nothings secret when your boyfriend finds your blog...
what a shmuck.

whether i live or die,
whether i try to divide
the loneliness
from the pain i left behind
how emo