close your eyes and make believe, this is where you want to be...

...forgetting all the memories

i'm buried deep inside my head
thoughts cage and swallow me whole.
i keep a note of thoughts and dreams,
so my mind can stay free
so i can be real.
i can hardly blink,
i can hardly sleep.
i've grown accustomed to hollowed eyes
and shadowy features.
i see it everywhere.
i see you everywhere.
eyes closed, eyes opened.
i'm never safe.
haunting..
wanting..
needing..
i look down on rippling puddles
when there is no rain to fall.
where do you look for a piece of mind
when you think you've lost it all?

.try to forget love cause love's forgotten me.
Decoy by Paramore

i'm hating the nightmares because i forget them when i awake
i'm hating nightmares because i'm a wreck at school
i'm hating nightmares because i grow so restless and
now i'm going out of my mind
rawwrrr....
i can't think straight. i need books.
i need to fucking sleep!!