let's keep the washroom incident our little secret

I wish every night at 11:11 p.m.
I remember loving it when i was young
The careless days.
I wish every night at 11:11 p.m.
I know wishes don't come true,
but it's always nice to
make believe
make believe that everything's going to be okay
make believe that I'll survive 2009
make believe that I won't soon be a ghost
a figment
of your imagination

don't tell a soul
but I held a razorblade in my hand for 10 minutes
before promising myself
that I will not allow my wrists
to shed a tear
that I will not allow him to win


...
then again,
if I do not want him to win
why do I feel like giving up

Death.......ofbeauty.